coming home.

...yaaargh...busy-ness (if that is even a word) has prevented me from once again updating regularly...so i'm quickly writing now for fear that i might let this diary rot from lack of updates...hehehe...i said i was gonna post something more upbeat, but i still have to write it up (it's music related, that's all i can say)...so here it goes for now...

...so my parents come up to me last sunday and tell me that they're planning to get the entire family back home to the philippines for a visit at christmastime...i haven't been back there for almost a decade...was born and raised there, then moved here when i was 14 (turning 15)...i was pretty stoked about the idea, considering i haven't seen ANYONE from there for a long time, but at the same token, i am a little bit scared...that country seems so foreign to me now, and i fear that the friends and family that knew me as a 14-year-old would be pleasantly (or otherwise) surprised by who i have become...not that i'm afraid of being totally ostrasized and such...just they might get disappointed or weirded out, and i don't want that to happen...now this is not in anyway to please them, just some kind of formality i guess...yah...

...oh, hell, who am i kidding?...of course i want to impress them, dammit!...i don't wanna lose face from them at all...honour is such an important deal in asian culture, so i don't want anyone calling me a "prima donna" just because i've been living in canada...but heck, i WANT to go back!...i miss the places, the people, the food, the culture...i can't take that part away from me...i guess i just gotta get myself ready for this trip...and i gotta save up...my parents can't buy the tix for me (only for my younger sister...stoopid youngest... >< )...which will end up costing me almost $2000...and that's just on airfare!...oy...we'll see...then again, i might end up secretly taking from my credit...hehehe...*sly grin*...

...well, that's it for now...be back on friday, more than likely, with that promised entry...and maybe by then i'll talk about the new incubus video...a bit in a hurry...gotta read psychology textbook and hem work pants (blasted this vertical inferiority of mine!)...so yah, runnin' away now...peace out...JOY :)